Irony... or Poetic Justice...

.... kuch ajab yeh bekasii hai dil ke marne ke baad....

.... logg nabz meri dekh ke batate hai zinda ho abhi....

the part of me which could trust people has perished... I am dead, per se...

... over the last 37 years, the comfort in believing people on their face value was my zenith.... for the remaining life, the inability to trust anyone will prove to be my waterloo... not in a distant past, was told by someone that a part of her which had stopped believing people revived when I walked in... ironic 'en that my ability to trust people succumbed in the very same hands....

the cardinal sin...

.... bekaar darrta tha main, ghayal na kar de koi tezaab....

.... teri dawaa ka asar hai , ab mukammal hoon main barbaad...

how do i hurt ya my goddess... didn't ever... won't forever...

... shocked by the sanity of unsurpassed holier than all aura, the insanity is indeed smarting from the deceit, maybe it forever will the remaining life... won't get even; precisely why I remain the odd one out... no-one knows that the halo is hollow... the hurt is going to annihilate me for sure but yet I pray to absolve ya... always having wished the world for ya, I am unable to crash it by an act of vengeance...

I'll see ya at 7.... Muuaaaaaaah

rangeen hoti thi jahan har shaam saath...
guzra wahan se aaj thodi aur chott khane...

nahi maalum zyada kya chubha...
zarraa hue mere khawab ya farebi tere vaayde sayane...

will ya shed a tear or two when i die... or will that be too much to ask from a stranger...

God: accept the change or else will decimate ya..

Me: please decimate..

God: ya didn't get it, do ya wanna get eliminated or do ya accept the metamorphosis..

Me: please eliminate..

God: I changed the question!

Me: no, ya didn't.. even if ya did, am unable to change my answer..

God: why?

Me: I promised once that will die but won't change.. so be it..

Lame...

God: gimme a 4 letter synonym for lame?

Me: hope..

God (laughing): with all my manipulated play, was hoping ya to say love..

Me: yup, love too, but I betrayed ya'r hope as ya did mine..

God (angrily): I don't care!

Me: am aware ya don't, or else care too wouldn't have been another synonym; do ya know a 3 letter synonym for lame?

God: nah..

Me: God...

the final countdown...

.... too much introspection leads to annihilation.... so I am pretty much on my way....

shayad...

.... shayad meri raggo mein behti sharaab mein thoda khoon abhi baaki hai...

.... issi liye marne ke baad bhi marne ka janoon abhi baaki hai...

my wish list to God ji...

.... unsuccessful in finding the book called, "love to un-love; made simple".... get me a copy, will ya....

Rush....

.... don't wait for life to screw ya later.... trust someone with ya'r life now 'n get screwed sooner....

The selective truth...

a random request to come 'n share...
meeting of strangers, beginning to care...
the two oddities, yet one fine pair...
was it the truth, sure it was...

friends transforming into lovers one day...
the lovers become buddies to stay...
promises aplenty, vowing not to slay...
was it the truth, sure it was...

enjoying the tea, sharing the heart...
watching the movies, going to mart...
two lonely portions, becoming one part...
was it the truth, sure it was...

aware of troth yet kissing with dare...
intimacy grew, two equally keen player...
playing of souls, bodies going all bare...
was it the truth, sure it was...

saying too often, bonding is the reason...
always 'n forever, not just for a season...
yet revealing an unforeseen treason...
was it the truth, sure it was...

on every crack, smothering with a cry...
on every deceit, an answer too sly...
a ray of sunshine, really but a dark sky...
was it a truth, sure it was...

gaffe to believe mirror lies in a glass...
honor amongst thieves is now a pass...
the eternal love shredded to crass...
is it a truth, if no-one knows... sure it is...

the buddy that i knew... the stranger that ya were....

... ya feared I had zillion zones...
... I said maybe, but never for ya...
... assured me ya weren't a mask...
... 'n I trusted, like in love one would do...
... ya stabbed me in the head...
... ya stabbed me in the tail...
... ya stabbed me as I went pale...
... but ya go fly high all ya want...
... I won't disclose the cheater's tale... 

soulmates... always 'n forever...

... umar bhar ke zakhm bardaasht karke bhi main kuch sard tha.... tune marham laga ke nashtar chubhoya, toh mujhe dard hua....

ya were right dudette... ya didn't know if ya could still call it a love note...

.... ya'r lucky if ya get a love note.... ya'r loki if ya get it only for proof reading.... 

Dudda... R.I.P.

.... I want my epitaph to read.... “expired; serves him right, the ass didn't believe in expiry dates.... ”

woh ....

... woh aitbaar hi kya jo pal mein tasavvur phor de...
... woh pyaar hi kya jo mazboot ehsaas ko tod de...
... woh shamma hi kya jo roshan ho apne liye...
... woh parwaana hi kya jo jeene ke liye marna chod de...

Farewell to Kabhi Alvidaa Na Kehna...

.... when someone walks into the life, but rather than staying there for the life or even for a reason, plays out only for a season, it's better to accept the change of the season rather than aching to find out the reason over the remaining life....

masks all around...

... It was agony when a favorite mirror in which I forever found my reflection got shattered... but it was catastrophic to find out that it wasn't a mirror but just another glass 'n all along I had been seeing a stranger...


..... pehchani shaam ki anjaani sard hawa ne apni zidd mein zindagi ki kitaab ke panne udda diye... kuch panne dhoond laya, kuch nahi mile... yaad to sab hai unn panno pe kya likha tha... par kitaab hamesha ki liye adhuri reh gayi...

amazinglustlusciousness

.... nahi hoti hai hairat jab mausam ki tarah badalte hai log....

.... hairaan to tab hua jab khuda ko bhi dekha yahan maine badalte....


‎​can the half truth be any honest than a full lie...
marring mercilessly, always 'n forever what meant to be alive...
can selective rightness be any higher than an open deceit...
acting holier than all, but are just another masked cheat...

.... stark reality...

.... war is sometimes preferable than love.... not an iota of a chance someone could be faking in the war....

Realisation... Revelation...

L: Loathsome...
O: Obnoxious...
K: Knucklehead...
E: Eccentric...
S: Senseless...
H: Harrowing...

insaaf...

... tum peeth pe karo waar, phir kyun lagta mujhe kamm hai...

... maine ufff kar di agar, tum ko lagta magar yeh bhi sitam hai...

I like ya'r game but we have to change the rules now...

... enough has been discussed about the broken dreams, unfulfilled promises, lies, 'n deceit... let's play nightmares, shall we... the bigger picture in playing nightmares is that no-one would ever crib over a shattered nightmare.... 

.... silent screams.....

.. from an evening too mad, miles I have walked sans a song..

lonely 'n forsaken, but with a smile all along..

nothing ya said 'en made any sense..

oh ya were clear, there was no pretense..

destiny probably had a mind too wicked..

a joke where all but my humor was tricked..

am blind now, aware of a lost dream..

silent forever but the ashes scream..

dard hi dawaa hai...

.... insanely enough, on breaching the threshold of pain, the heartache of love itself becomes the sole path of salvation...

naseeb-e-jannat ke liye laazim hai fanaa hona.... dawaa bann ne ke liye zaroori hai dard ka toofan hona...

conversation with God ji...

...God ji said, “won't give ya a rainbow”

'n I said, “no worries, I'd make my own”...

... God ji said, “unlikely ya can create a perfect vibgyor”

'n I replied, “no worries, I'll manage with my imperfect grays”...

...God ji thundered, “I will take that away midway”

'n I said, “no worries, will try, will die but forever won't let it go”...

...God ji said, “ya'r insane”

'n I said, “now that's ya'r worry, not mine”...

love or defiance...

... an audacious broken ray resolves to defy the eternal sunshine.... heart 'n soul are immovable, always 'n forever shall remain mine.... 

I am what i am ...

.... am incorrigible as much by design as much as I am by choice.... 

let me not be one of those... who came a dozen a dime...

.... I am cheap.... I come dime a dozen.... but where would ya find one twelfth of a dime 'coz there aren't another 11 jerks like me....

tell me something....

.... everything's fair in love 'n war.... not a realization, nor is it a revelation.... but I do need to know if it's love or if it's war....

Face off...

... undoubtedly destiny can weave a web... but equally web can loop the destiny too... 'n that in all honesty is not a fabricated true lie...

Que Sera Sera...

.... anjaan hoon apne mustaqbil se, na malum anjaam kya hoga.... par jaanta hoon meri har saans rahegi ghulam teri, mujh se azaad hone tak....

.... losing my way amongst the puzzle of the things that are meant to be 'n those that aren't meant to be, I realise that ya'd be my Goddess, always 'n forever....

Goddess...

.... like a parched land devoid of the rains, I was never meant to witness a rainbow.... like a miracle ya came, 'n now I believe, in the desert, someday a river will flow....

... har pal ki dastaan...

.... hairaan hoon jannat ke fasaane kaise bayaan kar lete hai kuch log yahan....
kya suna di hai tune unko, tere pehlu mein beete, mere har pal ki daastan....

fursat...

... fursat na mili tujhe chahne se.... varna aarzoo to bahut thi awaargi ki...

fursat...

... fursat na mili tujhe chahne se.... varna aarzoo to bahut thi awaargi ki...

zikr...

haan sach hai, sabne sune hain iss mehfil mein charche dard ke... kuch aankhen bayaan kar gayi, kuch khamoshi ne ki hai baatein...

salvation....

deewane ko lagti hai jannat tujh mein shumaar...
har dua tu, hai tu hi parawar-digaar....
parwane ki bismillah hai shama mein....
kya faraq, agar mitt jaon main har baar....

the faith I live, ya'r my prayer too sane...
waning but finding salvation in the pain...
like a moth blessedly attracted to the flame....
die it will, alive but shall the dream remain...

Ishq...

.... bepanaah teri chahat mein jo manzar jannat ka hai naseeb hua.... ab aaqabat mein uss se, Khuda bhi kahan behtar mukaam dega....

... Twain...

.... I live as much in the dreams as much as God ji wants me to live in the reality.... so be it... for now, am maintaining the status quo between God ji 'n the incorrigible... but I absolutely intend to make the twains meet far too often that one day even God ji falters in distinguishing between the two...

... to keep a woman happy...

There are 70 ways to keep a woman happy. One is to take her shopping. The rest is 69.... whoa... by that yardstick, I am a woman too... oops

ek shaam...

.... chahat teri panaah ki, yun ek shaam toofan aaya...

.... aarzu ab fanaa ki , toofan woh bhi na mukaam laya..

Toto...

.... fakat itna hi zikr tere husn ka hai mukammal.... Khuda bhi khud ko daad deta hai tujhe banane ke baad....

love ya my eternal sunshine....

doobta hoon teri aankhon ki gehraiyon mein main iss kadar....
tere alawa bhi hai koi Khuda, nahi jaanta, main hoon bekhabar....

I wish to savor every rise 'n dawn thru ya'r eyes....
ya'r the only God I believe, an atheist couldn't live otherwise....

... jannat...

.... khuda ne jab jannat banane ki aarzoo ki hogi....
.....yakeenan tera chehra uska sabab rahi hogi....