Immortal Love...

I wasn't convinced the rainbow was real...
until I saw it alive in ya'r beautiful smile...

I wasn't convinced I had a destination...
until ya held my hand 'n walked a mile...

I wasn't convinced that the earth moved...
until I savored the infinite joys in ya'r eyes...

I wasn't convinced the peaks were high...
until I dreamt too ya'r vision so wise...

I wasn't convinced the seas were deep...
until the crushing pain I felt when I saw ya cry...

I wasn't convinced the deserts would cultivate...
until ya made me resolute to live 'n try...

I wasn't convinced the skies were blue...
until ya granted me the wings to fly...

I wasn't convinced the dusk was dawning...
until ya gave me hope for the brighter sky...

I wasn't convinced if truly there was a heaven...
until ya filled the vacuum with all ya could give...

I wasn't convinced there was a viable God...
until ya came in my life 'n made me live...

Love ya more than ya thought I could... Love ya more than I thought I could...

wanting a slice of sky...

lost my emotions, ya tossed to grind...
now dump my heart too, outta ya'r mind...

yes no way, I can dare tame the gale...
everything I do, but still remains so pale...

am I a pawn pausing for ya'r next move...
humming ya'r tune, dancing to ya'r groove...

the promises, but then ya revert to same...
'coz ya rule sunshine, 'coz it's ya'r game...

why can't I be like ya, a distant refrain...
why is my crescent doomed for the constant pain...

mortally waiting for the immortal rain...
cold winters insure I forever remain insane...

am dying, waiting for the reassuring touch...
a desire my destiny finds a bit too much...

loving ya, wanting ya to live my dream...
but maybe I am fated to run outta steam...

goddess, ya'r forever the prayer I pray...
why then, my love loses way, 'n goes astray...

apparently I breathe, yet the life is mar...
running against time, running after my star...

Love ya more than ya thought I could... Love ya more than I thought I could...

an unending gratitude for an unparalleled attitude...

on a road less travelled, largely unknown...
losing way too often, am much too prone...

a miracle nonetheless for the parched land...
not a drop of water, endless miles of sand...

Almighty will, a blooming rose in the middle of a desert...
although nature is, it comes with the thorns imbibed to hurt...

is it really a half glass empty or a half glass full...
try as much, impossible it is, to milk a bull...

those who mattered 'n those who never made the cut...
not now a puzzle, absolutely clear as a rut...

endless pain when sweetness leaves a sour taste...
a lesson learnt hard is but never gone to waste...

apparently it's too little to gain, too much a pain...
yet abnormally, I long too, to be normal again...

an apology to the life for an apology of a life...

the sun in dusk, in search of another day...
ironically still am a lost soul, a lovelorn bay...

a free spin, 'n blue sky is changing hue to gray...
dry parched sea, on a pyre a lifeless body lay...

no merit I find, but ya must have had ya'r reason...
was it ya, or was it the heartless fate plotting the treason...

a shattered broken ray of what seemed like a sunshine...
not my soul, not even heart, can't claim to have anything mine...

was I forever meant to be another needle in the sack of hay...
not what I want, what I pray, submissive to the games ya play...

no mercy, can't claim to own a slice of the heaven shown...
the hell thankfully, can nevertheless claim to be my own...

insanely breaching limit, fast love needlessly going brash...
go find ya'r importance, don't bother, am just a trash...

ya'r right, ya'r the light, 'n infinite I am the dark...
couldn't bite, couldn't fight, crazily continued to bark...

walking 'n falling down a happy rainbow mirage...
no choice, am forsaking life to the contrasting page...

uncaring covers of coldness exposing me numb...
ya didn't push, careless I was, just a sucking dumb...

nothing to feed, an empty vessel of love to find...
a beautiful implausible game, an unrelated uncaring mind...

I am a blind atheist losing his way to pray...
only but me to blame, am ready, go ahead 'n slay...

deaf oh Almighty, are ya, why I wasn't heard...
don't comprehend why sorry is, but an another five letter word...

listening the unsaid... ignoring the voices...

stark truth, the life finds us a trifling...
summers of love are way too chilling...
an unwilling chicken submits to culling...
never meant to be is the answer of mulling...

why pretend when souls aren't together...
ya'r life, my goddess, is in a different feather...
nothing I'd do could ever change the weather...
timeless time but now ashes left to gather...

among options was I just another one...
am stuck however hard I wanna run...
thought it was serious but seriously fun...
ya my last, 'n I'm ya'r first thing to shun...

beautifully sordid but a shattered romance...
am infinitely sorry to be the hindrance...
wasn't thinking, just loving every chance...
almighty but never planned for this dance...

hearing things that were never said...
ignoring voices trying hard to be fed...
feeling secure tied to the broken thread...
joys shredded, umpteen tears to be shed...

sands of time were always mounting...
blissful memories, now will be too haunting...
heart mourns silently why my brain is shouting...
can't calculate but this is the final counting...