the sun in dusk, in search of another day...
ironically still am a lost soul, a lovelorn bay...
a free spin, 'n blue sky is changing hue to gray...
dry parched sea, on a pyre a lifeless body lay...
no merit I find, but ya must have had ya'r reason...
was it ya, or was it the heartless fate plotting the treason...
a shattered broken ray of what seemed like a sunshine...
not my soul, not even heart, can't claim to have anything mine...
was I forever meant to be another needle in the sack of hay...
not what I want, what I pray, submissive to the games ya play...
no mercy, can't claim to own a slice of the heaven shown...
the hell thankfully, can nevertheless claim to be my own...
insanely breaching limit, fast love needlessly going brash...
go find ya'r importance, don't bother, am just a trash...
ya'r right, ya'r the light, 'n infinite I am the dark...
couldn't bite, couldn't fight, crazily continued to bark...
walking 'n falling down a happy rainbow mirage...
no choice, am forsaking life to the contrasting page...
uncaring covers of coldness exposing me numb...
ya didn't push, careless I was, just a sucking dumb...
nothing to feed, an empty vessel of love to find...
a beautiful implausible game, an unrelated uncaring mind...
I am a blind atheist losing his way to pray...
only but me to blame, am ready, go ahead 'n slay...
deaf oh Almighty, are ya, why I wasn't heard...
don't comprehend why sorry is, but an another five letter word...
