Love Notes

Perversely confident, yet strangely unaware
A random request would leave me bare
For now realize doesn't matter how much I care
Lovelorn, emotionally I am a lay layer


In a one way journey, you bring me light you bring me day
But I just add to confusion I am the closed bay
It is you, all I think about every moment
And pray it’ll work out somehow, some way


Wish life was fair and love was fate
On the contrary today is too intricate
I meant it when I said “I do”
But you don’t really believe in a soul mate


Then why do I begin to get butterflies
Every time that I look into your eyes,
Is there a reason why my heart does skip a beat,
Forbidden fruit and a fatal desire
That I die after our lips passionately meet


Is this a joke
Was God being funny
Hopefully there is another reason
Maybe yet, it is a teaser of the movie playing
At the next fall, the next season


I wish you were here
Maybe I know that you are near
I shut my eyes and I find you there
Moment of truth, I find you nowhere


I love you more than I ever thought possible
Lust for you more than you could know
willingly would have fought with my creator
and hoped you didn't have to go


You are my spirit; you are the song of my soul
Cheers, to bonding, here I raise my toast
Spurn me, but be there to sing it for me
When I am down and I need it the most


And jerk who jerks, as I really am
but if you need, I will always be there;
there is no demon I won’t fight
for better or for worse, would always care


For you I seek all the stars of sky
and the power to fly
I wish, I prayed I was the fuel
Now dawned, destiny is merciless, is cruel


Every moment spent with you
Is like a beautiful dream come true
Have a dream to reveal
and want one infinite second with you
hoping against hope,
wishing that is also what you would have wanted to


When I’m with people and when I am alone
All I think about is you
All that is for now
have nothing else to do


When I wake up in the morning
and you’re the last thing I think about at night,
and when I fall asleep
I dream of holding you tight


I love you so much I hope you see,
your smile means the world to me,
Takes me to the cloud nine
Praying atheist, I wish you were mine


And there is nothing that I won’t do
Heaven of hell, and a hell of heaven
you are my Zenith as much as my Waterloo


You fear I have a zillion zones
With each maybe a thousand masks
Masks that you are afraid to take off
The fear of unveiling
The fear that maybe will make it impossible
For you to hate me
And I can't bear to be in this spot
Why can't we ever be… Why can't we ever be…


This is what I’ve become to be...


Love ya... more than I want to... more than you want me to...